One of the reasons I wasn’t ready to be a mom for so long was because I knew how much sacrifice it would take. I also figured that once I had a baby, I’d be all in and completely invested. That’s why when I first found out I was pregnant I secretly mourned a “death” of myself. I knew that life would be different forever…and it is.
These days, I’m wondering when I’ll ever get my groove back. Granted it’s only been 3 weeks since Lincoln was born, but every day has been consumed by doing things for him. Last week, we sold a onesie and it took me forever to package it up and ship it out (yeah, we also have a design line for those who don’t know). This got me thinking, “when will I be able to edit our videos again? When will I be able to cook and film again?” It’s easy to wallow in guilt and restlessness, especially when I read our YouTube comments, but I fight it and try to give myself grace.
There’s a season for everything, and right now is the season to slow down and learn how to be a mom. The good news is that with each new day, I’m able to accomplish one thing more. It might be the dumbest little thing, but it’s a big deal to me and it gives me hope. I know things will soon get easier, Lincoln will be on a routine, and I’ll be able to maximize my time better. Right now it’s hard to find the balance of being a momtrepreneur, but I’m sure it will click one day. For now, I will focus on loving my son, silence the guilty voices and not let the precious moments pass me by. ❤ #thelincolnlog
